Kill Me Before I Die

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Femme
Kill me before I die
Thrust your arrow into my heart
What's more, your love is like poison

Homme
I never asked you to drink it

Femme
O yes you did
You mixed it thoroughly,
served it in a crystal goblet
I watched as you flaunted its rubied fashion,
calling me to share its majestic splendour
and I couldn't refuse

Homme
But I never asked you to drink it

Femme
Why did you brandish it before my eyes
and watch me guzzle before I could think twice?
I floated on the clouds and smelled peace
You didn't lift a finger to rescue me

Homme
Why should one be rescued from peace?

Femme
You arrogant beast!
Surely, you knew what you were doing
Now my wings are broken and I've fallen from the sky
My eyes are open, my guts stolen, my clock's ticking
Kill me before I die
Your hate may do me good

©Radiant 2015

Comments

Radiant said…
What do you think of this poem? What does it mean to you? What feelings does it inspire?
14 July 2015 at 19:23
Mynaijathots said…
I read this twice so far and tried to digest it as much as I could. . However I Do detect a hint of rage, deception and self pity............
28 July 2015 at 21:45
Radiant said…
You read right @Mynaijathots. I just had the title on my head one day and thought of what to do with it.
29 July 2015 at 13:57
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