Trapped

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Tonight, my heart paces
My head pounds
Like I downed a cup of coffee
I know what's right, but it's hard to do
Tomorrow is the day
                                   And I'm only ten min's away

 I so wish it were
A moving melting mirage
That I couldn't reach or catch
But I'm here now, I dunno how
Did I pause praying?                 
                                   Or did I stop studying?

 'Twas while working your vineyard
I got trapped in this love yarn
Am I at fault for falling over? After all 
I asked you take them butterflies away
Nay, King of kings
                                   You gave 'em extra wings

 Now my mouth blinks
My eyes mutter
I stutter
Rehearsing my parting lines
Tomorrow must come, ain't no doubt
                                    I wanna do right. I want out!

©Radiant~ August 2014

Comments

Anonymous said…
Better late than never. Inspiring piece, Chidi!
Thank you for making my day.
28 August 2014 at 10:30
Radiant said…
Thanks dear. I'm happy you were blessed by it. Tomorrow finally came and I did what I had to do.
28 August 2014 at 11:19
Amaka said…
Thank God for grace.

Nice.
5 September 2014 at 10:38
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